PATIENCE

i never could realize the importance of patience maybe because i never used it. I am a designated impatient person. I want everything right here right now and i always assumed most of us do too but reality check ….life is not instant coffee… life’s slow dancing in it’s own rhythm and not giving a rat’s ass about what do i want but it does give you stuff in its own time sometimes when i think about life i imagine it to be an eccentric ballerina except this ballerina throws things at me ..but i never could be less awes trucked or less marveled at the beauty,precision and the sensitivity of life’s rhythm…it gives it takes it makes it breaks if life is a roller coaster either you can be scared, you can be overwhelmed by the sudden rush of adrenaline  or you can settle in and enjoy the ride because at the end the ride’s gonna be over anyway

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My take on islam

This is a pretty controversial topic regarding whats happening around the world..I am not from a conventional religious family but i do know Islam is not a violent religion..My father prays once a week tops..Islam is not misogynist either contrary to what even some muslims believe… Its pretty liberating if people think about it deeply..Being a Muslim i myself have many unanswered questions myself and i cant get the answers unless The One who sent it answers it Himself..But i must say the bold way of the religion’s coming into society was astonishing.The first verse revealed was “read”..it did not say read the Qur’an ..it said read..By that my intuition said maybe it meant to  educate yourself with the book..like whenever i tell my sister to read a book I know is already good i say,”read”..I dont say then and there how awesome is that book!.. I imply check this out..The Quran repeatedly asks its reader to think..to reason and debate..Its very frank with its policies and open to criticism…In a lot of verses it told the readers to bring the best words they can to refute it..but the allegories,metaphors,conundrums in the quran simply amazed all its readers that time..I think the most powerful feature of the quran is its  ability to relate to human psychology..I personally read a lot of verses where i could actually feel the emotion it was trying to convey for example-  in sura al ankabut whenever  Abraham  used to say the message to people, the people always replied with the words ,”kill or burn him”!..Imagine how bad Abraham must have felt and The quran was able to convey that emotion to me..There are verses which do imply war but that’s in the context of that time particularly..Innocent people were persecuted because of their faith and the other party was not ready for a mutual understanding ..so yeah it means peace because frankly it is peace at least that’s what i think it is.

My take on islam

This is a pretty controversial topic regarding whats happening around the world..I am not from a conventional religious family but i do know Islam is not a violent religion..My father prays once a week tops..Islam is not misogynist either contrary to what even some muslims believe… Its pretty liberating if people think about it deeply..Being a Muslim i myself have many unanswered questions myself and i cant get the answers unless The One who sent it answers it Himself..But i must say the bold way of the religion’s coming into society was astonishing.The first verse revealed was “read”..it did not say read the Qur’an ..it said read..By that my intuition said maybe it meant to  educate yourself with the book..like whenever i tell my sister to read a book I know is already good i say,”read”..I dont say then and there how awesome is that book!.. I imply check this out..The Quran repeatedly asks its reader to think..to reason and debate..Its very frank with its policies and open to criticism…In a lot of verses it told the readers to bring the best words they can to refute it..but the allegories,metaphors,conundrums in the quran simply amazed all its readers that time..I think the most powerful feature of the quran is its  ability to relate to human psychology..I personally read a lot of verses where i could actually feel the emotion it was trying to convey for example-  in sura al ankabut whenever  Abraham  used to say the message to people, the people always replied with the words ,”kill or burn him”!..Imagine how bad Abraham must have felt and The quran was able to convey that emotion to me..There are verses which do imply war but that’s in the context of that time particularly..Innocent people were persecuted because of their faith and the other party was not ready for a mutual understanding ..so yeah it means peace because frankly it is peace at least that’s what i think it is.

Aaaah! my comrade procrastination

I have my exams due two days later but here i am procrastinating away..i don’t live with my parents but when i do oh boy! I forget i am a living breathing responsible human being and instead curl up to binge for days or months in my parents’ house .No matter how much they bicker about my unusual take on life they never stop pampering me either… isn’t that wonderful! My parents want to give me an intervention But then they think to themselves till how long would they give it…seriously i am 20 ready to take on life or am i? Some times i still feel lost being alone on the streets, waiting to hold a firm finger ..i don’t know really.. will i ever grow up? can i ever stick  finger to the rest of the world?

my obsession with my boyfriend

via Daily Prompt: Overwhelming

I am new at this..i dont usually call him my boyfriend he has always been so much more to me . I wish i could marry him this instant but according to society and my family I am far too young. Usually i am not sooo erratically obsessed with him that i cant get him out of my head but today is an exception. A year ago when his classes were dismissed and i was busy like a superficial bitch i called him lifeless and blew him away and a year later the tables have turned my friend boohoo!..and he is very busy soo busy that he cant even see the void  which is growing exponentially in my heart by the minute..sadly i have no one to share this with ..this overwhelming hollowness.

Gushing over la la land

one of the reviews said while i was watching it is that they dont make movies like that anymore actually they dont. It was the whole cinematic experience. Starting from the i cant stand you phase to just talking endlessly and watching the whole world go by around you and feeling that finally you have reached that incredible moment where you actually wanna get up in the morning and not sulk how miserable your life is.I loved that la la land gave a sweet glimpse of reality.Not every love story has a happy ending. In the end you win some,you lose some. I always wondered why there has to be such a melancholic twist to life. Why do we have to lose something in order to gain something? my father says this a lot you know to burst my bubble. Only I know how many times it popped.But i still like to pretend in front my father that it didn’t yet.

my cry for help

 


My whole life i have been tethered to someone be it my best friend or my mom or the person i love..i am an ordinary person living an ordinary life expecting the unconditional love i gave to some one only to return back…but most of the time i fall flat on my face. EMOTIONS. There are so many kinds of them. They fill us up or drain us down. Apart from being an egotistical bitch, the emotion that i truly want to reciprocate is love. That’s all i ever wanted. But in the midst of it all i forgot to love myself. Isn’t that we all do?  We are afraid of ending up alone, afraid we would be lying on the bed staring at the ceiling with nothing to do, so we keep telling ourselves its OK let me call up my mom or my boyfriend and let me feel a little lighter but then if we don’t get the support we expect we succumb to pain and depression and accept that at the end of the day we come alone and we will leave alone. This is the biggest truth of life. That’s why i wanna write this blog. I wanna let go of all that dependence i have on people. I don’t wanna depend on someone to be happy. I wanna depend on The One who’s  above watching over us and myself.